Poke-teh-Jello

Dig into me, use your nails. Dig in to pull out the smoke. I know I don't seem frail and I laugh at myself but I swear, this is no joke. It's in too deep, it envelopes my heart. The smoke fills my lungs, sucking my throat dry. It tugs at my mind, pulling it along. Inhale Exhale Touch me, use me You make me feel alive. I would rather feel you than nothing at all. I would rather feel you than anyone at all. Demand it of me! Shake me until the darkness trembles, Back, Out, Away, Apart, until it has vanished from my presence. Hold me baby, make it disappear. I don't want this brace to define me, to be what holds me up when you

no, it's not me. not me any longer, but when did i slip away? i wish i could vomit you out, i've been trying unfortunately, i am a rat when it comes to you unable to excrete the poison pumping through my veins. these sheets tell a story, and we could throw them away but so does everything else in this godforsakenplace. if it comes down to me without you, i don't think i'd burn the city down, no i think i'd haunt it alive, i think i'd cry cry some more, it's all i can do.

i woke up from another fantasy, glad you were there to hold me. morning hair, morning breath, glad you weren't there to know me. when i go to the mirror, i frown at what i see, and i'm wondering why i'm not everything i should be. hold on, i'm holding on so feebly. it's only wednesday, you know i lose track so easily shower, wash my face, brush my teeth, and smile, hum to a song that once made things seem worthwhile, but that's your job now, with your beautiful eyes, and when i look into them, i am sure i see no lies. this is when i realize, you keep my heart from freezing. it's only wednesday, you know i fall so easily. and when

have you ever wished invincible? grasped desperately for the peace sold out for an express flight to freedom rage flickering on at a constant nothing to release the seed on hit and hit and hit a god-awful screaming flies scrape the insecurities with their consistant buzzing and legs full of little hairs. they scratch your face and batting wings bruise your neck blood stains from your wish to maim the pain instead, inside your head.